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Letter To Gido, Day Ten (07/27/2024)
Dear Gido, Mom said, "Inta hasis bina," you know? I HOPE SO. I hope you feel the pain I'm in. I hope my depression hits you like a truck...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20242 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Ten (07/27/2024)
Dear adult me, You and I last connected a while ago. So, I will tell you things that make me proud of you. I'm proud of you for putting...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20242 min read
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Letter To God, Day Ten (07/27/2024)
Dear God, Mom asked me, "If you die today and you stand in front of god, what are you going to say? That ur mad at him?" and the answer...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To Gido, Day Nine (07/26/2024)
Dear Gido, Missing you is tiring. It leaves me wanting to nap every day, wanting a world where you’re with me, where there is no pain. I...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Nine (07/26/2024)
Dear adult me, How have you been? How has the connection between us been? I was supposed to have therapy to learn how to make friends,...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To God, Day Nine (07/26/2024)
Dear God, Hi, it’s me. I’m confused. I’m not sure how to feel. Part of me wants to talk to you, but the other part does it out of...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To Gido, Day Eight (07/25/2024)
i skipped day 7... Dear Gido, I miss you. They talked about Om Kalsoom today, and I thought of you. I wish you could have seen Mary's...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Eight (07/25/2024
i skipped day 7... Dear adult me, I'm tired. I sleep a lot. Mom doesn't let me. I wonder if sleeping is a way for me to avoid reality or...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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Letter To God, Day Eight (07/25/2024)
I skipped day 7... Dear God, I didn’t talk to you yesterday. It felt somewhat weird. I’m not sure what exactly weird was, not doing my...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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the magic of reading
Tess was a reader. She read so that she could escape the painful life she's lived. Her books weren't perfect either. There was always a...
yostinaaa
Jul 24, 20241 min read
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i don't wanna be like my mom...
I was sitting in the living room with my mom today, and we talked about my little sister's orientation. I had put aside my mom's lack of...
yostinaaa
Jul 24, 20243 min read
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Letter To Gido, Day Six (07/23/2024)
Dear Gido Your death gave me panic attacks. I remember the first one, which was really bad. I was having a boy over. I went to get him...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20241 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Six (07/23/2024)
Dear Adult Me, Hey girly. Today has been a roller coaster, no? It is fair to say that both of us are exhausted. The world was extra loud...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20242 min read
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Letter To God, Day Six (07/23/2024)
Dear God, Why? I made a promise with you, and you broke it. This doesn't help me repair my relationship with you. If anything, it makes...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20241 min read
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Letter To Gido, Day Five (07/22/2024)
Dear Gido, For the past few days, I've been sleeping with a picture of you next to me. I miss our sleepovers. I remember our last one so...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20242 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Five (07/22/2024)
Dear adult me, Thank you. I'm in the mood to say thank you. Thank you for protecting me. I've witnessed firsthand today a child getting...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20242 min read
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Letter To God, Day Five (07/22/2024)
Dear God, I'm out of words today. I don't know what to say, and I have nothing to say. I'll take this as a sign to stop blaming you and...
yostinaaa
Jul 23, 20242 min read
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Letter To Gido, Day Four (07/21/2024)
i skipped day 2 and day 3... oops... dont tell my life coach Dear Gido, This is the hardest letter to write. I'm not sure what to say....
yostinaaa
Jul 22, 20242 min read
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Letter To Self, Day Four (07/21/2024)
i skipped day 2 and day 3... oops... dont tell my life coach Dear Adult Me, I'm supposed to compliment you. or me. I'm supposed to tell...
yostinaaa
Jul 22, 20242 min read
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Letter To God, Day Four (07/21/2024)
i skipped day 2 and day 3... oops dont tell my life coach... Dear God, I went to church today… I didn't want to go. Mom said I didn't...
yostinaaa
Jul 22, 20242 min read
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