Letter To God, Day Eight (07/25/2024)

I skipped day 7...

Dear God, 

I didn’t talk to you yesterday. It felt somewhat weird. I’m not sure what exactly weird was, not doing my therapy or not talking to you. Today, I was sitting with my cousin at dinner, and she said she no longer goes to church because her mindset is too liberal for church. I saw myself in her spot. I know a lot of myself in her. That scared me. Mad at you or not. Extremely religious or not. Disagree with some things or not. I NEVER ever wanna step away from the church. I grew up in the church. It’s my home. It’s my life. It doesn’t feel that way right now, but it’s what I know. Yes, I rebel. Yes, I follow the world. Yes, I see things in a different way. But one thing doesn’t change…. my love for the church. I miss loving it. I miss missing it. It’s weird. I’m still mad at you, tho. You still damaged me. 

Love, a still upset daughter