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Wanderings & Writings
too unrealistic
“Give someone a chance,” you said. A chance to what? To hurt me? To disappoint me? “Give someone a chance.” A chance to love me. To care...
yostinaaa
Aug 71 min read


He called me out on my pettiness
Something happened last week that’s been on my mind constantly. There were two events I expected to be invited to. I wasn’t. For days it...
yostinaaa
Jun 52 min read


emotionally gone, physically here
PS: This is not a call for sympathy, and it is not an attack. PSS: This is simply my truth. My mom called me dirty—“ wasikh ” in...
yostinaaa
May 242 min read


if you ever doubt
PS. this is not a religious teaching or push. PSS. if you’re not religious this will not make any sense i know that there is a God. i...
yostinaaa
May 222 min read


i like to walk out on my marriage
PS: This is not a religious teaching or push. PSS: If you’re not religious, this will probably make no sense. Here’s my problem: Now...
yostinaaa
May 222 min read


if you didn’t get to say goodbye and it hurt
PS. this is not a religious teaching or push. PSS. if you’re not religious this will not give you any peace in dealing with your loss ...
yostinaaa
May 222 min read


fashion icon (accidentally)
My socks didn’t match and I didn’t care. One was inside-out, the other—nowhere. I’ve worn them on heels, I’ve worn them on hands, Call...
yostinaaa
May 191 min read


The Opposite of Chaos
I used to chase stillness like it was running from me. Begged the world to quiet down, but it kept humming— kept buzzing, kept whispering...
yostinaaa
May 191 min read


dont judge me.
im a new york knicks fan and a boston celtics fan.. how? not sure what i do know is that: 1. i LOVEEE jayson tatum and his team 2. ny...
yostinaaa
May 191 min read


NO this doesnt mean ill be eating red meat again
if you dont know, i dont eat red meat. i havent ate red meat since 2021. i dont plan on eating it ever again (except for the occasional...
yostinaaa
May 191 min read


He didnt raise mine- but He raised me
PS. This ISN’T a religious message or push or spread... this is simply my experience. When I lost my grandpa, I was filled with a giant...
yostinaaa
May 193 min read


what is love? is love real?
unconditional love. “ a form of affection characterized by complete acceptance and support, without any conditions or expectations,...
yostinaaa
Mar 262 min read


i’m sorry for making sure i end up alone.
i think about my mental health and i think im broken. no one wants to marry someone on meds for depression and anxiety. no one wants to...
yostinaaa
Mar 262 min read
Im an English minor
I have to take a Poetry class... I have a poetry section, duh, youre here. However, as youve noticed, im not that good at it. I suck at...
yostinaaa
Jan 221 min read
Step One: SKIN CARE
If you're going to skip any of the steps that I'll be posting, make sure this is the one step you don't skip. Skin care is SO important,...
yostinaaa
Oct 27, 20241 min read


i swear im NOT asking for attention
I know how this looks, more therapy posts, more trauma dumps. My mom says it to me, so I expect the same from you. The reason why I don't...
yostinaaa
Aug 4, 20241 min read


update on my letters
I love writing my letters. I love doing my therapy. I love having time set aside for me. Recently, I've stopped doing my therapy. When...
yostinaaa
Aug 4, 20241 min read


IN THERAPY I LEARNED...
In therapy, I learned a lot... In my most recent therapy session, I learned that people can't read your mind (no duh). Specifically, I...
yostinaaa
Aug 4, 20241 min read


a rule i've always had
there is no point in trying to love someone, if you dont fully love yourself. it leads to toxic relationships it leads to heartbreak it...
yostinaaa
Aug 2, 20241 min read
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