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Wanderings & Writings
too unrealistic
“Give someone a chance,” you said. A chance to what? To hurt me? To disappoint me? “Give someone a chance.” A chance to love me. To care...
yostinaaa
Aug 71 min read


He called me out on my pettiness
Something happened last week that’s been on my mind constantly. There were two events I expected to be invited to. I wasn’t. For days it...
yostinaaa
Jun 52 min read


emotionally gone, physically here
PS: This is not a call for sympathy, and it is not an attack. PSS: This is simply my truth. My mom called me dirty—“ wasikh ” in...
yostinaaa
May 242 min read


if you ever doubt
PS. this is not a religious teaching or push. PSS. if you’re not religious this will not make any sense i know that there is a God. i...
yostinaaa
May 222 min read


i like to walk out on my marriage
PS: This is not a religious teaching or push. PSS: If you’re not religious, this will probably make no sense. Here’s my problem: Now...
yostinaaa
May 222 min read


He didnt raise mine- but He raised me
PS. This ISN’T a religious message or push or spread... this is simply my experience. When I lost my grandpa, I was filled with a giant...
yostinaaa
May 193 min read


what is love? is love real?
unconditional love. “ a form of affection characterized by complete acceptance and support, without any conditions or expectations,...
yostinaaa
Mar 262 min read


i’m sorry for making sure i end up alone.
i think about my mental health and i think im broken. no one wants to marry someone on meds for depression and anxiety. no one wants to...
yostinaaa
Mar 262 min read


i swear im NOT asking for attention
I know how this looks, more therapy posts, more trauma dumps. My mom says it to me, so I expect the same from you. The reason why I don't...
yostinaaa
Aug 4, 20241 min read


IN THERAPY I LEARNED...
In therapy, I learned a lot... In my most recent therapy session, I learned that people can't read your mind (no duh). Specifically, I...
yostinaaa
Aug 4, 20241 min read


the magic of reading
Tess was a reader. She read so that she could escape the painful life she's lived. Her books weren't perfect either. There was always a...
yostinaaa
Jul 24, 20241 min read


i don't wanna be like my mom...
I was sitting in the living room with my mom today, and we talked about my little sister's orientation. I had put aside my mom's lack of...
yostinaaa
Jul 24, 20243 min read


Can you tell I have daddy issues?
I was watching All American Season 5 when Billy Baker died. His death made me cry, and I’m not one who cries over shows. But Billy’s...
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20242 min read


I'm scared... and i hate being vulnerable
I'm scared of feeling too much. I'm scared of that heavy feeling in my chest taking over, I'm scared of the tears streaming down my face....
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20242 min read


to those who can relate, here's a hug
“I walked into a wall,” she laughed as she walked away from her friends. Luckily for her, she was clumsy enough for that lie to be...
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20241 min read


if you don’t wanna read the whole thing just skip to where it says “MORAL”
I was walking around my school today, confused at the weird emotion I was feeling. It was a surge of energy that scared me at first. The...
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20243 min read


To all the guys, I'm sorry.
Every time I see a boy's name pop up on my phone, I lift my guard up. Actually, it’s in general. Whether it’s a boy, a friend, my mom, my...
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20241 min read


I was given this prompt in 2019... so much yet so little has changed.
If I could change 2 things, what would they be? 2019 You asked me a tough question. If I could change one thing about myself, what would...
yostinaaa
Jul 12, 20243 min read


My "First" Tattoo
*this isnt my first tattoo* Im not going to lie to you... this piece attached was my college personal essay. To this day, i still think...
yostinaaa
Jun 22, 20243 min read
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