what is love? is love real?

unconditional love. “a form of affection characterized by complete acceptance and support, without any conditions or expectations, regardless of the actions or circumstances of the person loved.” (google)

the only being capable of unconditional love is God.

this isn’t a religious post or push. this will stop being about God after the next sentence or two. the ONLY being that is capable of unconditional love is God.

no matter what you do. how bad it was. NO MATTER WHAT. He loves without question. without doubt that you’ll return. He forgives and He loves with no limits.

as mortal humans, i don’t think this love exists. unconditional love cannot be achieved by us.

but unconditional love isn’t the only love.

i think you can love someone with all of you. i know this because i loved my grandpa with all of me. i know this because i love my pets more than anything. i know this because i would give up my life for my sisters life. yet still, i wouldn’t call it unconditional.

human love comes with conditions. it comes with prenups and divorces. it comes with estrangement. it comes with fights that you won’t recover from. it comes with limits on how much a person will take before they leave you. you cannot argue that you love unconditionally.

there are 3 reasons to why i would leave.

1. you cheat

2. you lay your hands on me

3. you yell at me and make me feel less

there are no exceptions. you do one of the 3 and you are gone.

love is not unconditional. not on this earth.

but how do you love someone so much anyways? how do you love someone enough to risk getting hurt? how do you get as close as you can to loving unconditionally?

i didn’t believe in love till i lost my grandpa and realized how much i love him. but with loving him so much it hurt even more to lose him.

how do you want to love even though it comes with hurt?

how do you convince yourself that love is worth the pain?

is it worth the pain?

there is a difference of love and being in love. will i get to experience the difference? do i want to?

my main goal is to protect my heart. i rather just be an attractive body then to love and hurt.

my life did this to me. my trauma caused this. my sadness put up my walls.

i wonder if ill ever tear them down.