if you ever doubt

PS. this is not a religious teaching or push.

PSS. if you’re not religious this will not make any sense

i know that there is a God. i believe in Him. i love Him. i have a relationship with Him.

however sometimes i wonder if the little things (like asking God for a hug and feeling a warmth around your heart as if he’s giving you an internal hug) are real, like is it actually God or is it just my head making me think my heart has a warmth around it.

am i making myself feel this way or am i actually feeling this way.

here’s something my FOC told me in response to that will stick with me forever (i hope).

he asked me:

woukd you rather

1. live a life thinking there is no God

2. live a life thinking there is a God

   
   

i told him that i’ve always believed in a God, but when my lost my gido i didn’t care about there being a God.

he asked how it was… i told him it was horrible (looking back at it now)

so he followed up with, and now that you live a life with God how do you feel… i told him i feel amazing and happy and at peace.

something / someone makes the world move the way it does.

something / someone created it

i believe it’s a God. i believe it’s my God.

i don’t believe in coincidences

so if it can’t be a coincidence, if there is no other reason for it then it must be from God.

he said said this:

what can’t it be a little bit of both.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE take that last sentence with A GRAIN OF SALT. we didn’t drive deeper into it and i don’t want it being the reason people stray, question or doubt.

i only share it because sometimes doubt doesnt mean disbelief. sometimes dount just means we're thinking deeply. sometimes its what brings us closer.

dont forget: thomas doubted too.