update on my letters

I love writing my letters. I love doing my therapy. I love having time set aside for me.

Recently, I've stopped doing my therapy.

When things get bad, I tend to stop habits and disappear from the world.

I post so people don't figure it out, but I stop answering. I stop eating. I stop smiling. I get careless with my meds. And now, I've stopped doing my therapy.

I'm not asking for attention. I'm not asking for help. I'm just updating you.

Some of the past few letters have gotten dark... too dark. Maybe I shouldn't have shared them.

BUT HERE'S THE UPDATE: I will no longer be writing letters to me. My therapist wants me to try something new.

Instead, I will be making a list of 5 things a day that I'm proud of myself for.

Maybe I'll post those at the end of the week, or maybe at the end of the month, or maybe not at all.

I guess we'll see.